it isn’t that easy to hide your emotions from others, but it is not impossible. over the past 1 month, busy preparing for exams, going through so much different emotions. i cant count the number of times i cried or just felt so happy next to you. the extremes of emotions just left both of us so drained.

you used to tell me how love would conquer everything. i always told you otherwise.

i watched countless of movies on the way back from london. i just couldnt sleep. out of all the random shows i watched and krisflyer dying on me twice, ‘he’s just not into you’, ‘handsome suit’ and ‘40 yr-old virgin’ taught me different lessons on love. just when you thought nothing good will come out from lame rom comedies.

i never thought i could care that much about a person. i never thought there wld be someone willing to care so much about me. i never thought that what could seem to be possibly a mistake right from the start to turn out to be something so good. but we were both wrong in some ways, that we ended up like this.

no matter what, thank you. i really miss you but you know what is holding me back.

why am i writing all these out? i want to have the guts to write down my emotions, face them and be open about them. this is something that has never been easy for me. but i would try, for the sake of myself and all the people ard me who cares about me.

and now, i should just sleep and have the courage to face a new day with hope. being truthful to yourself, to me, is the thing i really want to do now.