in the end, it is imposing your own standards on others.

After a long time

It’s finally 2010.

Haven’t written here for a extremely long time. For many reasons of course.

As 2009 came to an end, it was like ‘damn it is going to be 2010, I don’t want to graduate yet!’ but of course time will always come and we just have to move.

At this point of time, I am here simply because I don’t know where else to be. What should I feel or can I feel? What can I do or not do? What is exactly appropriate?

What can I do when people are just insensitive? Or maybe you are right, people just end up taking you for granted. I am someone who will try to go all out to help a friend who I trust and believe it is worth it, but now I can’t say I am totally unwavered in my beliefs anymore.

Sad isn’t it?

Not that a great start to 2010. Let’s just hope it gets better. I know it will!

totally unnecessary.

it will just be so difficult. do you even understand?

fucking bs.

disappointment, i guess.

what else can i feel?

oh well….

one more step could just be the hardest step to talk

i havent updated properly.. typing more than 1 sentence for a very long time.

time has passed so quickly. now i only got one more day before byebye to my internship. this internship has been great – i have met really cool people and learnt quite a bit..

after which, i m heading to penang with my mum and aunties..

after which, im finally gonna bid 20 goodbye and say hi to 21. then im flying off to shanghai for 3 weeks. coming back to singapore after that for only 4 days then flying off again back to london…

a very very hectic schedule i must say, but this is what i have planned since january for myself. but now, when im going to execute it, i cant help but to feel that i actually dont want to leave singapore.

this holidays has been so amazing so far.. i have met new friends, done crazy stuff, finally doing a malaysia roadtrip again, hanging out with people that i value so much.. maybe cos i know i wont get to come back so often next year, i really dont want to leave yet.

but i guess only time will tell me what i should do. cos there may never be the right thing to do.

happier but afraid

i live my life offline

when we r happy, we write little.

when we r sad, we write a lot.

when i write this, am i happy or sad?

hahaha…

you said i was stupid to do it, yea i agree. but i guess i trust you so much that you will be the only one i told. or maybe i shouldnt even have told you in the first place.

oh well……..